To that absent soul
I miss you so much
Is there any patience in longing?
I cry for you every day
I wish you’d visit me at least once in my dreams
Tell me about you
How did the dogs tear you apart?
How couldn’t they show you some mercy
And you used to feed them!
There are no loyal friends
Nothing is eternal as it is said
Describe to me how was your reunion with our siblings
With our father, too
I grieve you all here
I cry
Please, tell me how your pure heart allowed you to leave us
How could you go
Didn’t we always say:
“We either live together or die together?”
Why did you depart?
Tell me
I was told that crying over those who are absent won’t bring them back in dreams
So, I made a vow to myself
I shall not cry anymore
Just please visit me in my dreams again
I want to say goodbye
To hold you for the last time
Can you believe it
I even miss arguing with you
I long to see you walking into my room
And asking me all about the things you think of
I long to make you tea
To follow your one rule
A lot of sugar
You know
I talk to myself now
I say, you are in a place that suits you
Even when I cook
I think of you
I say to myself, “He doesn’t like this kind of food”
Thanks God you are not suffering from this famine
When I sip my tea without sugar
I say to myself
If you were here
You will explode in anger
Forgive me my dear for crying
I apologize
I shall tear my heart out
I shall erase my memory
I shall hold up my tears
But I shall wait for you
In my dreams every night
Please, do not embarrass me
Just visit me one more time
So, I can feel relieved
And know that you are fine
Amira Atiya Abu Al-Hussain
27/05/2025
